2ww after miscarriage

In my 2ww after my miscarriage at 4 weeks and 4 days. I found out I was pregnant at 12 dpo. My doctor said she wanted to up my clomid but I had me wait to make sure I didn’t have any hcg before starting. I thought that was dumb cause a lot of ppl don’t even know they are pregnant that early. But I listened she said if you test negative in 3 weeks you can start the clomid. Well sometimes after taking clomid your body will ovulate on its own for a cycle or two so I tested around the time I shouldve ovulated just to be safe. Cause you can’t take clomid after you ovulate. So I ovulated a week before I was suppose to take clomid. So now I’m in my 2ww 8dpo. Don’t know what to think tbh. Don’t really have the same symptoms as last cycle but the only real symptom I had was I got a little sick but my bf was sick at the time but I didn’t get as sick as him and that didn’t end till 8 dpo. And then the other one was a pulling sensation. Now I didn’t get sick but I’m also not having that pulling sensation that I had before well not as much. I’m only 8dpo but I just feel like I’m out. I wanna hope that I’m pregnant so I could tell family on Christmas cause I’ll be 14 weeks but I don’t think the egg and sperm connected. We bd before ovulation for 2 days when I got a high and then the day of ovulation and one day after just Incase. We’ve been ttc for 2 years officially this month and taken 10 rounds of clomid. My first pregnancy was the miscarriage. I honestly didn’t think that would happen to me not my first one not after all we went through. But it would help a lot if I just got pregnant right after I know it’s a long shot but can you keep me in your thoughts and prayers that would be helpful. Ttc isn’t easy but I know it will be worth it. Thank you all. Good luck.