Two years ago I was repeatedly raped by a boy who has "woman issues" aka he's a fedora wearing "gentleman" who's "chivalrous" and has "no idea" why women don't want anything to do with him. While he was using me, he did so by manipulating me into hanging out with him and "some other dudes" and by the time we'd get to the "hang out spot" no one would be there but the two of us, and then he'd spike my drinks until I was wasted and take advantage of my lack of sobriety. He did this to me a total of three times.

Now two years later I'm happy with my current boyfriend, he spoils me and loves me and he's very protective, but I haven't told him about my past abuse and he's friends with the boy who raped me. I live with my boyfriend and the one who raped me likes to show up at my boyfriends house uninvited and unannounced. I don't know what to do I hate seeing my abuser all the time but I care about my boyfriend. I've shamed myself about the rapes since they started because I can't help but feel like "it wasn't rape" even though I feel extremely violated by what happened and even thinking about it makes me want to cry... I don't know what to do....