BusPar/Buspirone

Is anyone on this medication for anxiety? I just started it on the 29th and so far I’ve had very bad nightmares which is a side affect and just feelings of hopelessness and suicide. I’ve always been depressed and anxious but it’s been worse. Do these go away? My doctor swears this medicine will help in the long run. I’m just scared. I think my job assumes I’m on something but all it is is me adjusting to my medicine. I’m not myself. I’m hoping I’ll be back to myself soon. But any advice or anyone else on it please tell me your symptoms or success on BusPar.