Going through some things

Me and my baby daddy are not together anymore and every time I think about it it makes me want to cry. We had been going out almost two years and not too long after we found out I was pregnant(which was not planned at all) he told me he wasn’t happy anymore and wanted to break up. It just breaks my heart because I have awesome friends that support me but I can’t help but wish it was him. He hasn’t completely checked out he still helps me with takin me to the doctors and grocery shopping because I don’t have a car at the moment but it’s scary enough being pregnant but it’s even worse because I feel like I’m somewhat alone. I just wish he would choose me and this baby instead of trying to find someone else. I love my baby but with all the bad circumstances surrounding it’s birth I’m just not excited to be a mom and I feel somewhat indifferent towards the baby which I HATE that I feel that way which just makes me even more sad. It’s just rough out here. 😪