I feel like a bad mom ☹️

My son is one day old and has been really fussy over the last day and a half when it comes to feeding. My milk obviously isn’t in yet so he’s not getting the instant satisfaction he wants when feeding yet. Once my colostrum is gone be gets very aggravated.

So now to get him to sleep and not fuss we have started to give him a pacifier and I feel awful. I don’t want to trick him into thinking he’s eating when he’s not but sometimes it’s the only way he will sleep.

Does anyone have any tips for the first few days of breastfeeding?