stay home or go back to work?

Kaela • Married to my best friend 8/9/14, Baby boy number 1 made his appearance 8/9/17. Baby Boy #2 made his apperance 4/30/19. Pregnant with Baby Boy #3. Being a mommy is what I dreamed of my entire life. 💙

my son is 9 weeks old and I should be going back to work at 12 weeks. my husband and I have been talking about me not going back, he got another job because he doesn't want me to go back and honestly i don't either. I want to be with my son all the time and be the one to watch him grow and do his firsts. But I also do want to go back because I went through all this college to get my degree and am still paying student loans. And I don't want to feel like im not contributing to our family financially. do any of you other stay at home mommas feel this way?