After all ive done to help my Mum... she told me she wishes she had aborted met

Looking back, my childhood was dysfunctional... not abusive... but not a normal upbringing. We were homeless a lot, Dad tried so hard but Mum never really wanted to work. We got bullied at school and I remember Mum boasting about her teenage sex life to me when i was a kid. I had no discipline or boundaries. I was a straight A student who was accepted into a gifted high school but it was high school when the wheels fell off. Bullying spirralled me into depression, i began to self harm... she knew this and didnt seek help for me. I fell pregnant at 16 and finished the rest of my schooling online. She always acted like she was there to support me but would say how ive burdened her. Dad was really good but worked away a lot. I met my now husband nearly 4 years ago and at 21 decided it really was time to move out. She didnt take it well. She couldnt live independently on her own government benefits alone.. she needed that second income. My dad had died by this stage of cancer and she said he did it to himself (lung cancer). I was pregnant again to my now husband, living with him and he was suppprting me and my other daughter while I was looking for work and studying. I gave my 3 month old car to my Mum as a temporary thing because she had no way of getting around. I never got my car back and the last time i saw it it had scratches, dents and roof lining coming off. I took out a $15,000 loan to save her mortgage because she couldnt pay for it without a job. I am so stupid.... I even co signed a new house loan with her when the bank repossessed the last house on her. I didnt want her to be homeless! So the $15k loan debt i had was incorporated into the new loan but now my name is on it too. She put a tenant in it without my knowledge, stopped paying the land council rates and stopped paying the mortgage. pocketed all the rent money which was more than the mortgage and rates combined! I had to do something... i saw a lawyer to get the house sold. She said thats ok long as she gets all tje money from the sale... i said no. i stood up to her. she found old photos on an ipod from my wilder days and uploaded them publicly to facebook telli g the world how an ex boyfriend gave me chlamydia. she told me if she could go back to 1992 she would and she would have aborted me when she had the chance. I feel so alone, people out there would kill to have a day with their mothers again... i see people at the shops with their mothers having lunch..... my mother wishes she never had me and has got me in about $200,000 worth of debt, my own fault for being naive but she was my mum and i loved her. *** i havent spoken to her since february she hasnt seen her grandkids she stood us up last xmas and im so done., she did this to my much older sister and i didnt know at the time as i was just a kid but we are back in touch now and closer than ever and she did this to her too but not to the extent as with me as my sister wasnt as stupid as me to help her as much***