Frustrated!

My hubby and I have been TTC for a few months now. Periods were irregular for while after coming off BCP, so I thought I'd focus on weight loss for a while. I began using OPKs and don't ever get a positive and I'm afraid that I can't get pregnant, which just makes me depressed and turn to food, which in turn is making me gain weight instead of losing weight, like I should be doing. I've been trying to hide my depression, because anytime I bring up my fears I feel like I just get laughed at. I cry a lot. I don't have many friends and family close by to talk to. I'm frustrated. All of my friends keep posting pictures of their kids or their growing baby bumps and it kills me.

So many people keep asking me when we are going to have kids. Women keep telling me too their stories about how easily they got pregnant and it doesn't help. "I got pregnant while using birth control!" Or "I got pregnant as soon as we stopped using birth control!" are all things I constantly hear.