I miss you

On Oct. 18 it will be the 2 yr anniversary of my dads passing. While I still struggle with the grief of losing him. How everything that year went horribly wrong. I’m also saddened that if and when I finally get to be a mom, he won’t be there. To hold my hand, to be the support he always was, to be the grandfather I knew he wanted to be. He won’t be there to share those memories with us. Ttc and failing every month just adds to my already worn out heart. I miss him, and what could have been.