I just wanna scream

I’m scared and just want someone to talk to when I was younger I had an abortion I was to young and dumb to take care of a baby now I’m a women and happily in love and want to start my family but it’s so hard for me to get pregnant now & when I last did I had a miscarriage I’m so scared that making that decision when I was younger has damaged me now i just want somebody to help me understand why it’s so hard for me to have my family now💔😔