Stagnant..not pregnant.

Once again I'm the one helping with baby showers or picking up the cake for the gender reveal...not the one having a baby shower or gender reveal.

This has all gotten to me over the course of 2 years. I just can't get pregnant. My body is broke. I feel broken.

I don't think I can take many more negatives. I rather make a decision that I'm gonna stop than always hope that I will get pregnant.

I'm feeling really sorry for myself. I'm happy for my family that are having babies but I can't help but feel jealous. I'm going down a bad road. Not looking for encouraging words or pity. Just wanted to write down how I'm feeling in a non judgmental place.