Experience with daycare?

My LO is 10 months and my original plan was to go back to work when he was around a year old. Ive been looking into daycares and seeing their pictures on their websites and facebook and have been feeling a crazy amount of anxiety. Like sick to my stomach, shaking, panic attack anxiety.

We moved out of state when I was pregnant so we have no family around. The baby has never been alone with anyone other than my husband and I.

It’s a combination of feeling terrified of him being left alone and crying with no one coming to help him and intense jealousy of him having fun and learning stuff from other people.

I know that sounds crazy. I can’t be alone in this, right? Has anyone waited to put their kids in daycare? Did you go through the same things?

I’m honestly just thinking of staying home longer. We can make ends meet fine, just not live like we did when we had two incomes.