Depression

Brooklin

You hear people talk about depression during pregnancy, and you may not think much about it. I never did, until about 2 weeks ago. I can’t even begin to explain what it’s like to be so sad during one of the happiest experiences you get in this lifetime. Being pregnant, just knowing what God is sending my way, brings me so much joy and love.. but the depression is weighing me down. For the past couple weeks I started out crying randomly for no apparent reason. It was just little things like the drive thru messing up my order and I’d spend 5 minutes crying over someone forgetting to take the pickles off my burger. Each day things became worse and worse. I’m now to the point where I don’t want to do anything or be around anyone. All I feel like doing is sitting in an empty room alone, just sitting not even on my phone.. but what makes this worse is how bad I feel about pushing people away and not wanting to be around them. I feel guilty, as if I’m punishing someone else for the way I feel. I cry throughout most of my day, I can’t sleep, I feel empty.. depression, no matter what form it comes in, is real, and it’s something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I haven’t been in the mood to talk to anyone recently, but for any other mom going through this, I just wanna say I’m here to talk if you need it. I know what you’re going through.