Why?????!!!!!

Looks like I'm single again, I'm done

UPDATE****

More like a back story:

I'm 27 years old, I do have my car and i am an expert at being single, as a matter of fact I mastered it, i do enjoy being single but this relationship is one of the best ones I ever had, and the thought of losing a person who treats me like a queen was a bit devastating, luckily we fixed it, it was more of a miss understanding than an actual fight, I was drunk and angry so I said things I should have never said...

My problem with my relationships comes from my childhood, I was the only child and my dad left when I was 2, then my mom left when I was 10, so I was always in my own, my mom left me with my grandma and aunts, and even though they are my family, the didn't like me and always pushed me away, so I had to train myself to be self depending, and I got so comfortable being by myself, only a few people I would feel comfortable around and those were my friends, I grew closer to them more than my own family.

Thanks to that I never had the comfort of a family (mom, dad, siblings) and "home" felt more like a hotel, where I could only go to sleep and eat, that screw my way to connect to people or even living with people, I cannot stand for the life of me to live with roommates, most of my relationships don't work because most of the time, people take the advantage of me, and I was actually living with a boyfriend once, but it didn't work because I couldn't get along with his family, I am not used to a family environment, it was too much to take in and handle it was even worse because I lost a baby due to an ectopic pregnancy, I was hysterical, I became a little violent, and despite all that, I still had the courage to ask him to take me to a psychologist, couples counseling, therapy or something like that, and his response was: you don't need ANY of that, you're not crazy; I would have anxiety attacks, couldn't sleep, wasn't working because I was recovering... then he FINALLY realized I really needed help but it was too late, I was worn out and I ended up kicking him out of the house, I didn't have the encouragement, I wasn't willing to make it work, I was done and empty of feelings...

I can say I am better now, and my current boyfriend seems to understand better my situation, he's more open minded and understanding, the "problem" was just a little misunderstanding I took it too personal, like I said, I was drunk, angry, and jealous, and I didn't let him explain himself, and when he left to give me some space I thought he left left, but he was just taking a breath.

We are good now, 🤗🤗

And I just hope everything works out.

And the title "why" was just the first thing that came out of my mind, since I already know why my relationships don't work, well, at least I think I do 🤷🏽‍♀️

And the "I'm done" I know that if this relationship doesn't work, i am gonna be done with relationships, I will take about a year single, because apparently that's the only think I know, relationships sometimes look so freaking complicated and I would rather be single than dealing with them.

I DO APPRECIATE YOUR KIND AND LOVING WORDS GIRLS, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.