He said a few weeks ago he didn’t know if he wanted to be with me anymore. It’s been a year.

Well tonight I got fed up with it.

He can’t just keep me in this grey area waiting for him to make up his mind, dragging me along. I never know how to act, like s girlfriend or not.

I have kids and it’s not fair to them either.

I told him I have respect for myself and that I was done.

He never called back, didn’t fight for me.

On my way home from my mothers I saw him standing outside the bar just having a grand old time. Was only an hour after the conversation. So just hurt even more.

Even though I ended it, I feel more as if I was the one dumped.

He’s happy it’s over, so it seems. Doesn’t seem to care one bit that I walked away.

And it HURTS SO BAD

I don’t know how to act from now on.

I wanted to block him so that I wouldn’t be tempted to talk to him. Then I thought that was childish.

Now I’m scared that if I don’t block him, I’ll subconsciously be waiting for a text.... when I don’t get one.... I’ll be hurt again.

Or should I talk to him and pretend to be happy and not care?

I feel so resentful, like I want him to regret it.

I’m so hurt.

I hate that I had to do it because he didn’t have the balls,

He can’t keep sleeping with me and be unsure. It’s been weeks. I gave him time.

I feel like I did the right thing but I’m hurt.

My chest feels caved in.

How do deal with the pain??