Make the baby of my dreams or settle and be with the love of my life ?

So ever since I was really young i have always wanted a baby , a "mixed baby .. I have always been attracted to white men ..

But I have been dating my bf for 2 years now and I have never felt a love like this before, he's my everything. But if we were to have kids they would just be black .. " I don't want to ever loose him and can't see my life without him .

nothing is wrong with black or just white " or one race .. but it's just always been my dream to have a little curly hair brown skin baby .,

I love being black !.. so plz don't say I hate my own kind .. am I racist for wanting a mix child ??? .. " at the end of the day I'll just want a happy healthy baby .. but just curious to hear what you all think .. plz be nice !..