When your husband controls your sex life....

I get sex maybe once or twice a week. I understand that means something different for everyone; some people don’t mind having sex once or twice a week, some people think it’s a lot and others don’t think it’s enough. I don’t think it’s enough. Once a week doesn’t satisfy my needs. I get rejected every single time I try to initiate anything. I don’t think I’ve even tried to initiate for the past two and a half years of our three year relationship. I sit down and have a conversation with him about how all of this makes me feel and nothing ever changes. After a whole weekend of no sex, I’m feeling so disappointed, undesirable, and disgusting. Of course, he claims he loves me, finds me beautiful, and is attracted to me, but I’m rejected every single time. But when he’s in the mood, I’m expected to be ready. When he’s in the mood, he barely even touches me and makes me do most of the work.

I’ve tried everything and nothing changes. I talk and talk and talk and nothing works. I’m feeling so disgusting right now. I feel so damn pathetic for having fantasies about my own husband wanting to sleep with me.

He just doesn’t seem to care.