When I started dating my ex husband I was 17, a senior in high school(2011). He was 19, with a full time job. Just a few months in his ex started drama saying that he cheated. I thought she was being jealous. Fast forward to 2013, our daughter was turning 1 and I found out he did in fact cheat on me with said ex. So, if any of our male friends flirted I didn’t care. I didn’t flirt back but I didn’t stop it. A mutual friend texted me while I was napping with our child and said hey sexy. I had not replied. He woke me up and started smacking me around, I was choked and pushed. I left just an hour later after packing. I was gone for a month and yes I did go back. If you don’t understand why or have never been with someone so controlling then don’t comment on it. I don’t need to be told what I did wrong or told I was weak. Anyways I went back, he never touched me again but he did cheat a lot. I dealt with it. I wasn’t having sex with him so I just didn’t care. I was being taken care of and kept working and my child was taken care of and seeing her dad. She was happy and was unaware that anything had happened. I still loved him very much and still showed affection just like he did. We got married in 2014. Fast forward again, they don’t change! I knew that then just like I do now. While I still loved him and showed I cared etc, I kept my guard up. I always stayed prepared for him to hit me again. For a few months leading up to September of 2015 it had been rocky, it got bad. And I had a male friend who was making me finally see my worth, that I deserved so much better and I started to think wow I need to get out, I’m not happy, and I should be. Well I lost my job, I was diagnosed with epilepsy. My seizures were constantly happening and I was always doing tests and in the hospital. It put a huge strain on everything. Then he accused me of cheating when I didn’t and then one night, he exploded. He was yelling at me that he couldn’t do it anymore and asked me to leave. I then tried to so he would relax and he shoved me to the floor. I tried to scream and run but he stopped me. It escalated and he called the police who then realized it was domestic but I wasn’t saying anything. They told him to leave and go to his parents place. He did. My child and I stayed in the apartment for 2 weeks when he said he wanted his place back. He made me leave and stay alone in a hotel. Afterwards I told him I was leaving him for good. I moved in with my mom and my child saw me on weekends. He said that I abandoned her somehow and they took his word over mine. December 2015 I filed for divorce. Finally January 2017 it was final. He was given full custody and then remarried two weeks later. His baby was born in July. Sometime during that he decided he didn’t want our daughter anymore. He was fighting me for two years to keep her! And he just threw her out. Literally. He moved her in with his parents and tried to hide it from me. I went back to court and got her with me. I wish I had never met this man but then I wouldn’t have my child. I love her to death but I hate him. Now he won’t even see her or talk to her...