Well, i just want to share what happened to us around a year ago.

I got pregnant and we were so happy! I couldn’t believe what was about to happen and we were so ready to be a mom and dad.

I’m really really close with my mother in law and she was sooo happy for us, we even did a party to celebrate

When I was 6 weeks pregnant.. we found out that my mother in law had stage 4 pancreatic cancer, we were devastated... and I felt really painful cramps but I thought it was completely normal so didn’t say anything..

Around my 10th week, I went to check my baby out, we were still happy but sad for my mom in law...

We lost our baby.. we lost him/her when I was about 6weeks! Right when we found out about her cancer.. it was really hard and sad and we didn’t know how to tell her since she was super happy for us even though she was really sick..

Today, almost a year later, we are still not trying... but my mother in law is doing good with chemo! We are thankful for that since they told her 6 months..

it was so hard for us and hurtful that I’m afraid to go through that again and start trying.

Is it normal how I feel?