Second guessing my parenting ability.

Kelsey

I was so sure I was ready for another baby when we got the surprise pregnancy news. I have two girls and I'm 25 weeks with girl #3. Idk if it's hormones or just reality setting in but I realized what a lazy annoying bum my husband is. He isn't lazy when it comes to money. He loves money and is one of those work smart not hard guys so he only works a couple hours a day at a part time job to help his buddy and he flips houses. It seems like a lot but he doesn't do any of the work just has good deals with friends in construction so the majority of his day is home napping or watching college football. He doesn't help me and doesn't do anything with the kids. I am starting to realize this will never change. And it didn't bother me before but now... how am I supposed to do everything with 3 kids by myself. From morning to night every bath, diaper change, meal, breastfeeding, school function, basic running to the store. He doesn't even want to watch the kids so I can shower or grocery shop. I'm screwed and now I'm terrified. I'm starting to be worried I won't be a good enough mom to have the energy everyday to keep up with three girls. I don't have any family and his mom is older and usually sick so I don't ask her for help, and he doesn't trust any daycare or babysitter because he thinks everyone is a pedophile and might molest one of the girls so they are with me every single hour of everyday of their lives so far. It's exhausting.