so.. this topic i dont know how controversial it is. I battled anorexia and bulimia as a teen. I had no support. I overcame It on my own as I had no choice and realized I was dying. I was very resilient. But the problem is did I just get lucky? also like it's popped up in my life manu times since then. Never to the full extent until recently. I am a mom. I have 2 little ones at home all day and I currently started losing my weight after my youngest (daughter) it's been a while since I felt like I looked good. And my wedding ring started fitting again which made me feel really special. I am almost down to my wedding weight (10 lbs to go) which is my goal and a healthy weight for my height. The problem is I am feeling the thoughts slip back in and I can't shake them off. I had an extremely painful childhood and I have been to therapy most of my life without getting into it too much I have so much hurt in my heart that I know is what the real issues are but I am terrified to face them as I feel they have the power to destroy me ans I'm a bold and tough person day to day I hate being vulnerable but theres a part of me that's so fragile and it scares me..anyways I was

wondering if this is typical or just me because maybe I didn't get the right help maybe I never healed? my sister battled anorexia and is currently in recovery and she said she feels the same she got tons of help tho but said she agrees that it never goes away fully that you just constantly fight it. this time I dont really feel myself getting off. I feel like a car with no breaks. I'm not even underweight yet so I still have my goal but I know once I hit my goal my goal will drop. so what's your opinion is an eating disorder forever around or only when your not fully recovered? Tia.