TWW is making me crazy!!!! Help!!!

TWW sucks!!! So I really really want a baby, my hubs can’t decide one way or the other. I am turning 36 and he is 43. Together we have 3 teenagers, all living with us. So it’s a constant battle of in 5 years and the kids are done school and we can have our own live or in 5 years we are starting a new one in the whole school process. Back and forth, back and forth. There are definitely pros and cons to both situations. My son is 14 and I loved being pregnant and I’ve always wanted another. So, in July, after several months trying to convince my hubs we should have a baby, I got pregnant. He was totally on board and we were happy with it. Well, it turned out to be a chemical pregnancy. And after that I told him, how about if I just go off birth control and see what happens. If it’s meant to be it will be. He didn’t say no, so no birth control it is. Now, with 3 teenagers in the house all the time, they really need friends, sex does not happen nearly as often as I would like. But, we have our date nights and that usually just mean we go somewhere and have sex. Lol. I started tracking my period and ovulation in hopes that I will get pregnant, however he doesn’t know that because he still on the, whatever happens, happens plan. I just try to plan our “date night” around ovulation time. So, last Saturday we had a date night, which by the tracker, was also my ovulation day. That that I trust these app 100%, but, when it predicts my period it’s pretty spot on. So, I should now be about 5dpo and I’m going crazy waiting to find out if it happened. I’m starting to just think I’m crazy because I feel like I definitely could be pregnant. Yesterday and the day before I had super light pink spotting, which didn’t happen today. I have been having light cramps for a few days. My breast a slightly sore and swollen feeling, also noticed what could be colostrum coming from my nipples. All of these are sign but, it is still super duper too early. I’m so anxious and I just want another week to hurry up and go by so I can take a hpt. It’s driving me crazy!!! Has anyone else had symptoms this early and actually been pregnant?? Please help put my mind at ease!!