The waiting game is killing me!!

This is our second month trying, I was heartbroken last month when what i thought was my period came. I’m still not 100% sure it came. I had blood on the day my period was supposed to start, then the next day nothing and some spotting a few days later. So we started trying again, this time we didn’t do it every day of my fertility window but a few days. I have three apps I use one to track my period, I have used that one for a few years it says Tuesday. I have Glow which told me AF should have been here yesterday. And another fertility app that says Monday. I have almost no symptoms, my boobs hurt but not like they did last month. I took a test last night and a huge big fat nothing. I have read stories of women saying they never tested positive during their pregnancies, some didn’t show up until they were 3-4 months, some only knew they were pregnant because the strayed to show and went to the doctor. This whole thing is frustrating! I’m trying to stay positive but this little thought keeps creeping in, “you are never going to able to be pregnant” . I’m so sad that I see people on my Facebook announcing and I always think, “wish that was me”.