Do I tell him if I’m pregnant?

A bit of background on me, I am 20 years old from Canada but last year I decided that I wanted to not only move out but explore the world.

I have been living in Germany for a year, alone. Since coming I’ve met an amazing man who loves me unconditionally and does me no wrong.

My only issue is for the past 2/3 weeks I’ve been feeling tired of our relationship. I haven’t wanted to have sex or really see him at all. I don’t know what has changed, I just have no desire to be with him. It’s not because he’s done anything, I am just bored and I really do feel like this isn’t going to work out in 2 more years. There just isn’t that spark anymore. The thing is I really do love him and I WANT to be in love with him because he hasn’t done anything wrong. I just don’t feel it.

Anyways about the pregnancy thing, I had a late period and I was having some crazy symptoms. I am 98% sure that i am pregnant. I was planning on buying a test today however I had some severe cramping and BRIGHT red watery blood with tissue chunks (not period clots, it was full blown tissue) as well as morning sickness and really intense lower back pains (almost near my butt).

I’ve talked with a girlfriend of mine here and my mum and I really do believe I am or was pregnant.

We never use protection (that’s just our choice) so obviously pregnancy is a risk, I’ve done the math and I would be 5/6 weeks pregnant.

I will take a test later in the weekend after work to confirm but my question is;

If I had an early miscarriage do I even bother telling my boyfriend? And if I’m pregnant do I tell him?

Is it a bitch move if I just leave Germany and raise a baby without telling him that it is his baby?

If I am pregnant I don’t want to stay in Germany just because I get free health care benefits in Canada and ALSO I haven’t revoked my Canadian passport just yet.

So I won’t be living here with him anymore, and I am sure he wouldn’t REEEAAALLY want to be in the babys life. I know for fact because he hates children and claims he will “never have kids” which is idiotic because if you don’t want to risk having children wear a condom.. I am fine with the idea of having a child so no condom is fine for me the risk isn’t much of a risk for me. I am financially well, I have experience with children, and I am okay with the idea of being a single mother. He is the one that doesn’t want to wear condoms though, it “hurts” him.

(I work with children and toddlers so this is a turn off for me and I think my body knowing it’s creating a fetus, made that turn off even more severe and that is part of why I am just not feeling our relationship anymore)

Also if anyone has had an early miscarriage and wants to tell me their experience that would be much appreciated.