No Longer TTC!!

And no I’m not pregnant, sadly; But maybe this is an eye opener for me. I’ve been in an on and off 3 year relationship and I’ve just been tired. Drained.. The same guy I had an ectopic pregnancy with was the same guy I wanted to try with again. We live 2 totally different lifestyles where I thought opposites attract but not so much in this case. Maybe I’m not the one he wants to be with and maybe he’s not the one that is for me. Anything that is not meant for me I am okay with not being meant for me. I won’t try to fight nor try to change a persons ways just try and divert with mine. I’m fine with that and I loved him just for him and I still love him to this day. I seen where we started having our relationship problems but I’m such a firm believer when it comes to someone you love what’s meant to be will be and whoever’s for you always comes back. We always found ourselves back to one another but I really just don’t know anymore. I’m scared that I’ll never get different results resulting in insanity repeating the same issues in our relationship over and over. I am looking to better myself and become a positive person for me and also for others around me. I love to make people feel good, I love to make sure people are happy with themselves so much I didn’t realize I neglecting my own happiness and emotions. In a week I’ll be going back to school for 3 months and I am very excited. As for me and my ex we are as of right now friends which that isn’t even such a good idea. I will always love him. I love him at a distance and I’m just so proud of all his accomplishments he made in life, because everything he said he was gonna do he did and of course I was behind him I always want to support the love of my life to make sure whatever they want in life they can get if they follow their heart, their mindset, and their goals/dreams. Same for me. I hope when I go back to school I have the support from my close loved ones and in time everything will fall right into place. I really route for all the women out there TTC. DON’T GIVE UP! Your time is coming. I wish you all nothing but the best. Congrats to all the new moms in the making and congrats to all mothers now conceiving. I hope to soon be like you guys, but as of right now it’s not the time and I am okay with that. Everyone take care I’ll still look at your posts and get inspired and prob fall in Love all over again. I totally have baby fever still, but I want to make sure the one that I love with all my heart is ready to step up to that role. Time will tell everything ❤️