Heavily pregnant (38weeks5days,) will be having my baby in 4 days, also im a mummy to a 9year old and a 6year old. Currently they both feel like pushing buttons which i expected.

Anyway my rant.

I had no choice but to stop access to my older kiddies dad, eldest was having a really difficult time. His dad decided he would say things like he was going to run me and my partner over and beat us up etc , everytime they went there they would both be coming home crying and turned out he was keeping a big secret of his own. He made a disclosure in school to myself and his grandma that his own dad was hitting and throwing things at him. He started attacking weirdo before he told us, hiding when we was on the bus passing his dads work panicking at certain cars and even seeing his dads girlfriend he would have a melt down. Obviously now we no all thats gone on i will never let him near my kids again. School advised not to allow him access and so have the safe guarding team. I made their dad aware they do not wish to see him and it was the kids choice in doing so. He last saw them in april, eldest told us in june/july whats been going on, and their nana (his mum) was told by my eldest why he didnt want to see him and she has chose to ignore it. on halloween they went to a party with my mum their grandma for their nana to have told their dad they was at the party so he turned up my eldest had a melt down and he grabbed my youngest we have now only just found out his mum did this and telling people the only reason he doesnt see the boys is because of me and everytime the boys will be in the area she will contact him to tell him completely disregarding my eldests concerns his dad will hurt him the fact he has panic attacks and anxiety attacks which is not helping his asthma.

Sorry i just need to rant get it off my chest before new baby arrives