We have been together for 6 or so months and he is the boy who had stolen my heart. How do I even put this into words. He made me fall in love with him, so sooo deeply. He’s like a drug, like a drug you can’t stop taking it, in this case, he’s a drug I can’t stop loving.

I saw him again today and he told me that he doesn’t like being with only one bird, he likes having a couple of birds (bird means girl, as I’m British).

He told me we shouldn’t date anymore and we should just be like what you would call “friends with benefits” as he doesn’t want just one girl in his life, considering that he said this, I’m certain he’s cheated on me.

It’s hard, it really is, imagine being in my shoes. He’s made me fall for him and he betrays me like this. A boy who just made a girl love him deeply and he leaves her in devastation. I’m heart broken. But I don’t know. Should I do what he says, or shall I change it all. Atm I wish I acted a whole lot different when I first met him.

I honestly feel so suicidal. I know you would say that I’m over reacting. But I just really don’t know.

😭😭

I feel like I’ll never love anybody as much as I loved him. I feel like there’s nobody that I can fall in love with, deeply, like I fell in love with him. Why did he do this to me, I hate him and love him at the same time.