Don’t know how to feel

So I had a chemical pregnancy late October. I was so excited but confused to see a pregnancy test while I had bleeding. I had that feeling it wasn’t sticking. Anyways I just found out my best friend is pregnant and she didn’t want to be. She’s gone though something lately and I just don’t know how to feel. I’ll be there for her but I’m so sad. Why why why? I want another baby so bad! Why can’t it be my turn instead?!?!