A year ago I was raped by someone I trusted (my first boyfriend)and someone my mom really liked, I never told my mom or my brothers about my rape I kept it to myself then I started going into depression I reached out to a favorite family member before I started therapy , last night my world turned upside down my mom found out about my rape but she got the wrong information she was told it was my recent ex which it wasn't so I had no choice but to verify that it did happen but it wasn't the guy she was told it felt like I had the wind knocked out of my chest when she asked me I could hear the heartbreak in her voice which is exactly why I never told her, i couldn't look at her and talk about what happen I just told her I doesn't matter now there's nothing you can do, I called my oldest cousin immediately after she left in tears asking if my fave cousin had told anyone she said she wasn't sure and she would make some phone calls, I found out that my fave cousin had told my oldest cousin because she was raped as well and wanted to help me my oldest cousin the told her sister and her sister told my big mouth gossipy aunt which is how it got to my mom, I texted my mom telling her I would talk to her about it when im ready and I literally cannot deal rn I've been up since yesterday crying my eyes out I don't know how to tell her 10mins after my rape she met the guy who did it for the first time I wasn't ready for this conversation I don't even think I was going to tell her and once again my choice was taken from me