Limbo LDR. Love Story. No1 to talk to. Am i losing it????

Shar

So i been dating this Taurus Female for about five months now. We met in Mother’s Day Night 2017 and she invited me to her room, we chilled and talked until she fell aslp😴 on my chest😌next morning we grabbed a bite🍽, got our toes done💅🏾, and hung out 🛋until I️ had to go to wrk👩🏾‍⚕️. And like literally we been inseparable for like the first three months📆 she would fly✈️ me out every weekend to her🏖🏝, take me to concerts🎫, ride jet skis, hit all the clubs🌃, nice restaurants🍾, hotels on the beachside, and shopping🛍....I️ mean babygirl paid a bill or two (cause she wanted to) (im very independent 💵🚗🏡👩🏾‍⚕️) and put extra money in my pocket. I️ mean she did the works!😍 and it just seemed like from the moment we met the chemistry been on 🔥💯 I️ mean was like nooooo other🙅🏾i even met her two kids 👩‍👧‍👦

Now within those three months it’s wasn’t all peaches and cream. There’s was an incident when we weren’t official and we went to a spot she’s well known at. And at this spot some dusty off brand basic thot grabs MY Taurus ass! Not once ☝🏾but twice✌🏾. And my Taurus smiled😊 and moved out her reach. As fine as i was that night and semi fresh relationship blossoming i wasn’t gonna cut up just yet. I remained calm and waited until we got to the room to give her a piece of my mind. Honestly my feelings were hurt 😞because that time i drove over 300 🛣some miles and 6hours later to see her and all she do was smile and moved. She could have at least acknowledge that I️ was there. All in all i tried to leave but she stood in the way of me and the door🚪. I set the alarm 🚨on my car off and she moved out the way. Of course i came back because fact of the matter is i came out there to see her and her only i knew no one else and had no where to go and definitely wasn’t in any position to drive 6hrs back to Atlanta. Next morning i packed my things, spent time on the beach alone thinking of my next move and hit the road back home🛣🏡.

Next incident she came to visit me for the first time and I️ show her the same hospitality she has shown me. This time we go to the club. We get a bottle and vip just us two. By the end of our evening i noticed her checking a female out. I didn’t mind because we both like women but as long as she didn’t act on it, it’s kinda ok with me. But by the time we are in the car the chick she was looking at stops in front of us tlkn to her friends. My Taurus yells out the window for her to move and next thing i know she walks to her window. The drunk doesn’t know I’m in the car and continues to give out her Snapchat. I say “o really “ and my Taurus gives me a dumb look like “what I’m suppose to do” look. The look your momma would slap off your face. Once again i keep quite until we got to my house and gave her another piece of my mind. Next couple of days she stayed up under me until it was time for her to go.

By now it’s August and since the two incidents things seemed to slow down alil and we seemed to argue more, argue(badly) about my bday plans sept4.. i went to see her once this month for the solar eclipse and surprisingly it went well. By the end of August she gets in some trouble and ties up her money. So now she feels like a nobody bc she feels broke. And NOT ONCE I TREATED HER DIFFERENT. Now she in a sensitive place she feels i treat her different and lost respect for her because she can’t provide how she have before.

Here’s the thing i didn’t need her money we argued because i wanted her to help me make plans if she planned of paying most of trip, so she would be aware financially since she was stressing about money.(and yes i shared that with her) i mean i had the first ten PAID TIME OFF days off of September. And with the storm and all it seemed to me that was probably the only reason i was able to see her two days out of the ten days i had off. So y’all must know things aren’t as pretty as it was in the beginning. And still i stayed.

OCTOBER is the month that broke the camels back. Drove out to her the sept 30 planned on staying two weeks. By this time i haven’t seen her in about two weeks and we talked about bettering our relationship and being more serious about living together if we planned on being together. So our first couple of days were like heaven. Then one day she keeps ignoring a particular call ALL DAY LONG next morning while she was in the shower i went through her phone and seen ily message come see message i need a hug message type of bull crap. Personally I’m a firm believer in the three strike rule, and this my friend was that third strike. Anyways to spare details shit got ugly quick. And to this day i feel bad it went that far but i felt like she tried me for the last time and she wasn’t getting away with it. So after the altercation I️ left and went to a friend I️ met in her city a month prior. (Mind u this grl I️ met in a nail salon and we hit it off quite nice. And I️ feel if I️ was to consider moving, I️ would have to make my own friends eventually) (and this grl for some reason my Taurus don’t like her never met even after I️ try to introduce them. I️ mention she is well known so her cousin must have said something to her about my friend) anyways I️ went to her house and later that night we went out. While I️ was out my Taurus blowing up my phone asks to see me and I️ tell her location. This heifer leaves me stranded waiting on her blowing up her phone while she’s ignoring me for damn near 20 minutes. And when she finally pulled up it took the seven heavens for me not to whoop off in her ass for a round two. And as crazy as it seem when i got back to my car i found myself driving back to the hotel. Next morning i helped her prepare her son bday party at his school with my Taurus and her child’s father. And I’m all honesty i didn’t want to b there and felt like mommy’s homegrl than her girlfriend. For the rest of the day i did everything she wanted and needed for her and her son. Next day was my last day (oct10) and Lawd it felt like a funeral. She tried her best to make up but i was still upset. Like i didn’t have time to get all my frustrations and hurt out because it felt like i just kept going day after day not one day i slowed down to process the last few days. And right before i left she met me at a restaurant and she apologized explained expressed and begged she even went to the point of getting one a knee giving me a ring off her finger stating it’s a promise ring.

Besides FaceTime i haven’t seen or touched my Taurus. We have been at each other throats everyday. Our fights get disrespectful and hurtful and we stop tlkn for a few days. Most of the fighting i end it with a 🖕🏾don’t call me anymore and then days later i call her. ( i also usually well now more than ever is the one calling her out her name and she never done it to me) I hate the fact i have nothing wrong but yet i feel like I’m begging her to get right so we can get back on track. I️ also hate the fact when she knows she’s wrong she’ll sit there and take hours of me belittling disrespecting her. But I️ do it out of anger because I️ just wan the. Old is back! But the fighting has taken a toll on both parts and it’s like we still love each other but it feels like we stopped trying. It’s like we are struggling to keep in touch. I neeed serious help ladies my heart is broken and I’m not sure what else to do.