Big chop

So I have done the big chop 3x now. First one was by choice. I really just wanted a change. Second time was cause I was stupid and got a relaxer. Now this time was by force. I wanted to get a silk press and I was not done correctly so my hair pretty much fell out. I was so heart broken cause I really loved my afro. I didn't have the "good grade" of hair but it was healthy and pretty. I guess I just wanted to rant. But please make sure your stylist knows what they are doing.