I️m 34 weeks

And I can’t stop smoking 🤭 there is 38 days until my due date. I smoked before my pregnancy but never needed to. Just to chill with my SO at night or if I wanted to get really horny lol. But after losing a whole bunch of weight my first trimester I would take a couple hits to keep food down and be able to function to take care of my kids. I️m not puking anymore but I feel all around shitty. I get nauseous still, headaches, this awful taste in my mouth, my back hurts my pelvis hurts my legs hurt. And it helps. And I know people don’t agree and that’s fine because I don’t think I️m hurting the baby. I’ve been smoking a joint with my SO at night then during the day I’ll take a couple hits of the roach from the night before. My biggest concern is the hospital testing me. I know once he is born these symptoms will go and I️m not worried. But I tried sooo hard today and did well until 3 pm. I was at my wits end and not feeling good so I took about four hits. I just want to clear my system before I deliver and I️m having a ton of trouble 😭 call me what you want but being rude won’t help me stop 😩 I feel so defeated. So many things happening in my life making me so depressed. Help 😔

@brooke I live in a medically legal state but not recreational. They’ve never taken poop from my first two kids so I don’t understand that. A lot of people say that but I don’t remember that happening at all. They also didn’t take a urine sample when I was in labor two previous times but again just in case. I know I need to stop I️m just having a lot of trouble :( I know my SO will not and he’ll just do it away from me instead. Thank you ! Going to sleep now and haven’t had anything ... props to you as i imagine quitting cigarettes is much harder ! He is supportive of me choosing either way but he’s smoked everyday for probably ten years and I can’t see him stopping though i haven’t asked or even thought to lol

I don’t think my midwife has tested me because she never mentioned it but also I use their online chart system and my urine analysis never mentions it? I go to all my appts, not a cigarette smoker and of course no drinking I’ve never done a drug in my life either. So it’s just the MJ. I haven’t smoked since the day I made this post ! I know that’s only two smoke free days but it’s something right .

Update : I’ll be 38 weeks on Saturday and I haven’t smoke since I posted this, on November 7 😎