Omg I want to scream and cry

So this morning I log in in IG and the first thing I see is my fiancé best friend girlfriend post this on IG. I’m not going to lie I feel so fucken jealous right now like I really want to cry we been trying for 5 years and nothing every cycle for the past years I tracked ovulation taken vitamins and so many other things wake up at the same time to check my damn temperature. Taken medication to help us and nothing and she just post this I know it’s so wrong of me to be jealous and I am happy for them but deep inside my heart I am beyond hurt. I know is not there fault but damn it really hit me to see this picture. And they both smoke weed every damn day none stop and drink alcohol and I don’t even do any of that I eat healthy and nothing 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢