pain after miscarriage, due date today.(graffic picture attached )

I have a beautiful 10 year old daughter , and after 5 early miscarriages 8 years ago I had a molar pregnancy that I had toterminate at 20 weeks gestation. devestating. then out of the blue in February I fell again, we had early 6 week scan, I was told baby had strong heartbeat which they could detect yet baby was 1.9 mm. at 8 weeks another scan all good, and at 12 weeks for Nucal baby was facing away and not moving but I was reassured everything was ok. I had felt movement at 11 weeks but at 16 weeksgestation another scan .... sorry there is no heart beat ... Those crushing words. I was induced the next day and gave birth to my Son at 16 weeks. 10 fingers and toes 13 cm long. after he was born my milk came in for a few weeks it was crushing..... today is his due date, my back aches, I feel like my body is going into Labour, it's not in my imagination either it's horrible , I feel like I'm going into Labour again and I have lost him all over again....please welcome my Son Lael Thomas McGrath. my shining light.