For several years i have been smoking weed, i live near Amsterdam so it's not that big of a deal here. I started very young i guess, i was 12 then. Because it is legal here nobody sees the problem about smoking weed. There are many upsides about weed, it helped me staying stabilized when my depression got really bad. But there are downsides too, i was/am not myself anymore. I smoked weed every day and i thought i still really needed it, but thats the problem about addiction i guess...

Right now it is 3 days since my last joint. It might not seem much but to me it is. I wanted to write this quick note for myself actually, to be able to publish something about what i'm doing and reflecting on myself.. Making myself believe that i can me proud of myself. This time i am really going to quit the addiction. This week will be shitty but i will get through!