Just wanted to angry type and get it out of my system 💁🏼. I really don't know what I'm doing wrong in friendships or my relationship. Like here's the thing - I don't want to be lead on, if you're not sure you want me or if you know you don't want me - leave me now so I won't start to love/fall for you anymore than I already do. Don't feel sorry for me either, just do what you have to do. I can guarantee that I'll always love anyone more than they love me, I'll always care for them more, I'll be the first one to be there when they are at their lowest and the first one there to give them a strong hand back up when they're down. It's funny cos I even do that for a job now, I love people all day every day that don't love me as much.

Just now, I feel like an option - a chore rather.

Moan at someone - me

House to be cleaned and hasn't been? - me

Babysitter? - I apparently never have plans so of course I'll be volunteered unwillingly 🙃.

Someone to be angry at for no reason? Me, don't worry I don't have feelings.

Blowjob? - one of my good uses eh

I don't think I've ever felt so lonely, I just want people to WANT to see me and spend time with me. I made my last efforts with people tonight. I shouldn't have to beg for a friendship or relationship with anyone. If I don't receive the same efforts I give out - I've gotta lose that shit 😔

This is all probably an over reaction cos I'm pmsing, missing my boyfriend and In a grump cos I've not seen him in 4 days 😂