****UPDATE**** i spoke with my boyfriend about this whole thing today. And he told me that soon as im off depo and the 10 months of infertility is over, we can start trying. he wants to sace a lot of money in that yime frame. i am too happy for words!!!! i explained to him that for a while now i have been ready. i was trying to have a child before i met him but i put it off so i didnt chase him away. But I am happy that he said this. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .... I don't know what to do with myself lately. I've been depressed. Haven't wanted to get out of my house, or even my bed. it's 2 months away from my DNC 2 years ago. when I lost my poor baby from an ectopic pregnancy. ever since then, I've been broken. I've been empty. I want to be a mother so bad. that's what I'm living for, to have a family.... And I don't know what to do. I'm getting divorced. dating a new guy for the past 7 months. And he says to his friends all the time that he doesn't want kids, but around me he talks about when he has kids, when he is a parent. I know he's not ready. But I am. I have Been for a long time. I was trying. with my husband. buy it wasn't a healthy relationship and I couldn't continue it. i have nothing to do with my life.... I don't know what to do.... I'm on birth control, for my boyfriend. not for me. anyways... the past couple days I've had a light bleeding. haven't had my period since June. took a test last month and bfn. this bleeding is very light, only when I wipe. And brown or pink.... I get lots of bloody noses. doctor today said I have a fever, and my roommates said I'm super pale. I'm always tired. moody, gaining weight, but not pregnant..... I don't know what to do.