So, the last two days have been just garbage.

I hadn't seen my boyfriend in a while, so I was excited to see him. Usually I spend the night and it's a good time.

But Tuesday night, his mother decided out of nowhere that he shouldn't be sleeping in the same bed with me, even though for literally months that's what we've been doing. And she hasn't said a word. Her reason? "It's not Christian." (He's Catholic and I'm Christian, so) This was, and still is, extremely upsetting to me because it helps with my depression and anxiety. I feel better sleeping next to him and feeling him there during the night. I had a severe breakdown and dissociated. I was so angry and just completely not myself, I ended up drinking until I felt numb and just didn't care. Boyfriend was gone to help someone move at this point, so I was alone. It was late at night, so his parents were in bed.

He came home and that's when I snapped out of it. I feel extremely guilty still about what I did, even though hes told me not to and he doesn't blame me.

This is stressing both of us because he has a lot more on his plate to be upset about, and this is just an unfair bullshit thing. He still slept with me that night because I was so upset and he knows better than to leave me alone when I'm that bad. He said he'd talk to his mother, but I don't know when that will happen.

I realize that I may be over reacting, but I can not begin to explain how badly this has affected me. It isn't even that she dislikes me or doesn't want us together, which makes it harder because I know she's not trying to hurt either of us.

I felt horrible throughout the entirety of yesterday, just constant anxiety, and worrying about my boyfriend who kept going back and forth between being okay to being angry. He didn't hurt me, don't worry, but I felt completely powerless to help him.

I'm still feeling pretty bad...

I should mention we are both in our 20s, which to me makes it even more bullshit.

Any advice or kind words are welcomed, please.