I really hate myself right now and my depression has hit hard. I try and talk to people but everyone ignores me and my calls, I feel like I annoy everyone around me and would happily crawl into a hole and stay on my own the rest of my life. I cry myself to sleep all the time and I'm seriously beginning to think my abusive ex was right when he told me no one would ever want me, everytime I meet a someone new things go great then suddenly it turns sour and they either ignore me or distance themselves till they no longer exist. I try to make new friends as my old ones stopped talking to me because of my ex but no one ever sticks around, could I honestly be that awful that no one but my mom wants me around? I was supposed to be getting a puppy but even the breeder won't answer my calls or texts. I feel more alone than I ever have. I always wanted a family of my own but now I know that's never going to happen as I only have a couple years due to stupid medical problems. no one has to reply I just needed somewhere to get everything off my chest to someone that can't walk away from me and ignore my words.