i hate my body

jjh

i hate my body. i hate myself for letting me get this way. im lazy. i cant find any motivation. im tired all the time. i eat good and workout for a few weeks then binge and gain it all back. i need to loose 35lbs to be considerd healthy. i know i should be thankfull its only that. but in my brain im the uglyest piece of shit that looks like a whale. i hate feeling this way. it sucks! i want to take a knife and cut the fat off my problem areas.