Okay so this might be messed up, let me say I’m sorry if this is long!! Trigger warning ⚠️ so let me say I’ve been seeing a therapist since high school. I was molested by my father all through out high school, I was raped by my uncle at the age 11, in high school my cousin tried to get me to have sex with him.... I’ve been going through a lot and when I say a lot I mean it’s been seriously ALOT, I’m dealing with lots of things I am now 21 and I don’t work I have social anxiety, depression, bipolar.. Anyways reason why I am posting is because I told my therapist but didn’t really get into details much cause I was embarrassed, but what I got out she said it was normal... BUT I feel nasty, dirty and just gross I don’t have any thoughts of actually doing these things but when I watch porn I watch “Daddy Daughter” “Mom Daughter” “Forced” basically everything family!!! Why ? I know for most of you it might sound awful trust me I know but has anyone else been through this phase ? I mean does it go away ? And why ? Why does this turn me on ? I’m disgusted with what my family has done and after I masturbate I feel sick to my stomach cause I feel so nasty... HELP 😓😓