So I was always "good girl"

When we usually go out I drink cola+wine and nothing else,I feel good and I never get drunk or nauses..

But the other night my friends wanted to drink vodka+juice and I don't usually drink that but they didn't have enough money to buy vodka without me paying as well I agreed to drink vodka too.

And when we finished the party we went to apartment,and buy some snacks with the money we had left.

When I started eating the snacks I started throwing up,but I didn't feel like I was drunk or anything only nausies..

They helped me,and started kidding like "You finaly loosen up a little,you always look so tense and like you don't have courage to loosen up,don't be shy its normal,we all had done it once in life."

But I feel like I have disapointed my self because of it..I like my "good girl" image and wouldn't like to spoil it..

I do drink alcohol but only wine because that is smthg I enjoy drinking and have total control.I just have couple of glasses with cola.

I feel bad because of throwing up,I feel like I have let myself down.