i wish...

He's showed me that not all guys are the same. He can be kind, sweet, random and sexual. I love all the sides i've seen of him. I just wish i could be with him. He says he likes me ... but the age difference is too much. Why can't I just be older... i want him so badly and we've gotten to know each other so well. I know i'm just a teenager.. But feeling like this sucks. He's not the first guy I've ever liked.. but he respects me, listens to what I have to say and actually talks about things with me. He can be a gentleman and make me feel smitten and so happy. The thought of being with him makes me so so nervous and happy at the same time. (He's 19 and i'm 15) Please no negativity I just wanted to ramble out my feelings.