On November 3rd I lost the father of my two kids . Age 8 daughter and son 4 I spent 7 years of my life with him since the age of 16 . We have been through many ups and downs but never lost the love for eachother . We divorced in September but we're separated for 2 years . Both in separate relationships . And I'm expecting a baby from my boyfriend due in April . I'm an emotional wreck to say the least . I didn't realize how much I loved that man until he died . I feel so much guilt and honestly I'm lost . I'm grieving for a man I love while being in a 1 relationship with my boyfriend . I don't want to keep going because believe me there is ALOT. And some I rather just keep to myself . If there is any FB groups that I could join or anything or any info I can get . I would love it . I don't have much family where I live and to be honest I would rather let my heart out to people who don't know me and won't judge me . Thanks for reading my post .