Am I the only one here?

I feel as though I am broken..and I dread the next moment I have to speak to someone. Even my best friends I don’t want to talk to. I Hate going to school because of that reason and I can’t do homeschool. I’m so worried and it feels like I am powerless to change it. To add to all that I feel like I need to move I need to get away but we can’t and please tell me someone else is dealing with this too. I fear I have no way out ( all ready been to a therapist and they suggested pills which my mom wont let me take) I also have depression and severe anxiety...anyone got any advice?