He left

I just need to rant somewhere. Last night my boyfriend broke up with me over text and then blocked me on everything. That itself is absolutely killing me. It came out of nowhere. We were so happy and then he's just gone. I miss him so much. I can feel my heart break more and more each minute. I have never felt pain like this. I've had a lot of physical pain on my life, but this is by far the worst I've ever felt. He never even gave me the chance to talk things out. He just left. I miss the way it felt to be in his arms. I miss the tingling feeling I got when he kissed me. I miss the butterflies I'd get when I saw him. I miss the way he would draw shapes with his fingers on my hands and arms. I miss how I would catch him staring at me. I miss his laugh. I miss his corny jokes. I miss the songs he's sing. I miss the way he sounded when he was tired. I miss hearing about his day. I miss his random phone calls. I miss sending him pictures/videos I knew would make him smile. I miss receiving the same things. I miss his hands getting tangled in my hair. I miss taking him dinner at work. I miss staying up until 6am on the phone. I miss the way his nose would make a whistling sound sometimes. I miss the feeling of comfort I had. I miss talking about our future. I miss planing trips. I miss his stubbornness. I miss the way he sounded when he talked about something he loved. I miss his road rage. I miss the way he grabbed my face to kiss me. I miss his good morning texts. I miss the sweet names he'd call me. I miss hearing the way he said my name. I miss the way my hand fit perfectly in his. I miss how he'd pull me close to him. I miss that annoying sound he made when he ate. I miss him making me mad. I miss him telling me it'd be ok. I miss him wiping the tears from my cheeks. I miss when he'd smack my ass every chance he got. I miss seeing the love in his eyes when he looked at me. I miss sneaking off somewhere when he was at work. I miss sending him sexy pictures at the worst times on purpose. I miss the reaction I got. I miss the way he was the only person who made me feel beautiful and wanted. I miss everything, every little thing about him. Tomorrow I'm gonna try to delete all the messages and pictures, pick myself up and keep going. Tonight, I'm going to listen to all the songs he'd send me and look back on memories. I'll let myself cry tonight. I'll always love you Tyler ❤️😥