Just need to vent

Noriko

I am waiting for my D&C.; I was told 8 weeks after my lmp that the fetal pole only measured about 6 weeks, and betas dropped. My midwife offered the pills to induce the miscarriage, but I knew I’d rather have it done with in a clinic. I scheduled my D&C; for today, 9 weeks since lmp. Still measuring 6 weeks, so they told me they’d have to test my PT/PTT because it’s a 3 week discrepancy (anyone else have to do this?). Have to reschedule for tomorrow, call off work again, and my husband will also have to call out so he can pick me up. Even more frustrating is the lab didn’t pick up the blood today so they’re going to try another test, which if it doesn’t work, I’ll be sent to a lab and possibly delay again. I just want this pregnancy OUT. I don’t feel like doing anything when my body is in limbo. I’m scared of bleeding at any moment, I’m tired of waiting. Sorry for the negative post but I need a place to vent, feeling isolated and frustrated.