Confused...

Me and my boyfriend have been dating for about 4 years now. We have two beautiful kids together, and I love that man with all I got. Recently we had a break up about 5 months ago. It was the usual drama you know a guy is gonna be a guy every so often. I found out he was seeing this chick that works with him and they were texting each other like crazy. I asked him about it of course knowing he would lie!!! I just wanted to see.. well I told him I was done and it’s best we split and he goes back to his parents. His family loves me. Just to say it’s kinda hard splitting knowing their gonna want to see the kids and you of course so. After about a month I met this nice guy at my job he was super sweet super laid back and we just became friends. I told him about my situation and he was going through the same. We end up fooling around about the second month in he caught feelings and me I was just having fun basically 🤷🏾‍♀️

So now I was stuck in between fun and wanting to make my ex relationship work my boyfriend and I started back talking slowly he was aware of the guy and told me that he is really ready to come home and make things work for the better!!

So I agreed zaddy needed to come back home. I was kinda upset with myself because I gave up this goodness gracious to a quick pumper 🙄🙄🙄

So I just kicked him to the side after fixing things I thought with my man he finally proposed to me on 8-15-17 in our pjs on a boring night home alone away from kids

I was so happy because that was a shocker!!! Things were going great. Now it’s been about 4 weeks we have been on-cordial speaking terms in the house but no love making hair pulling ass smacking type of situation. I finally broke down yesterday and ask what was his deal he says he can’t get over the fact I had sex with someone else and he just doesn’t know about us right now.

So I’m like why now when that happen months ago??? He says he never really got over it... I got upset because I have gotten over him doing the same 2 times now...so now I just made up my mind to take the ring off and wait because I’m confused to WTH NOW...