Feel like giving up 😔

Ciara

Every time my husband and I talk about trying for a baby he says yes I want to do this but his actions make me feel like he doesn’t. We have been married for 6 years and have tried off and on again the whole time we’ve been together. I go to dr and get checked like I should and everything is fine and he doesn’t think I need to try taking any treatments to help boost the odds. My husband won’t go back to the dr to get checked. My dr and I have suspected maybe a low count or he just needs some supplements to maybe help fix it but he won’t go to get tested to confirm this. He agrees and takes the pills regardless.... this is not the worst part that makes me feel like giving up. It seems like when we do try or even when we don’t we aren’t BD’ing hardly at all, like maybe 3-4 times a month at the most. He knows I’m using a opk to try and pinpoint the best time but he has yet to want to BD. It makes me feel like this is pointless and I’m going to either be the crazy dog lady, or I’ll have to take other options. I’m 26 and he is going to be 32 in February and I just feel like something has to be wrong with me....he isn’t cheating since all he does all day while I’m at work is sit at the fire hall (we are both volunteers). He had gout and even though it’s maintained for the most part he complains that his joints hurt and he doesn’t have much desire to BD unless he can get a BJ. What good is it to keep testing and trying and taking pills if he isn’t going to BD when we really need to. We are both trying the Conceive plus pills and I have the lubricant but haven’t even used it. I’m just venting and sorry this is long. I just feel like I’m never going to get my chance.