I am a mother of soon to be 3, I’m married been with my spouse for 13yrs married almost 2. We met when we were 15 and 17. My husband has always been the bread winner for the family taking care of us. I didn’t have to work but I did had my own online boutique. He’s always worked offshore since after graduating high school. Money was always good and well managed. Recently he started working on the east coast away from home. While working out there he was introduced to meth and cocaine to stay up on overnight shift. He took the offer up which was a stupid, selfish and terrible move. He was working out there for almost 2yrs, I noticed a changed the end of last year around August. He would talk to me bad which he never have done. He would tell me I’m in porn videos knowing damn well that’s not me. I couldn’t pin point what was wrong. January come around and I ask him was he doing any type of drug. He admitted to the cocaine, it didn’t sit well but I did talk to him and let him know it was unacceptable. He said it wasn’t something he did often like one or two times (lies). Me naive to the drug thing, I don’t know what to look for. June rolls around the Father’s Day weekend. I get a call him telling me I have to drive all the way to North Carolina to get him. We live in Louisiana like 45min from New Orleans one hell of a drive. My sister and I drops everything and gets on the road. I’m asking him what happened he said he was caught with drugs. What kind of drugs (Meth) WOWWWWWWWW JUST FUCKING WOWWWWW was my reaction unbelievable. Since then he has lost 3 good jobs because of under the influence of drugs. We ended up losing our apartment and hopefully not the car. I’m currently with my mother which I am comfortable here. I have admitted him in the hospital 3 times hopefully that he would go to rehab. He’s not accepting the offer saying it’s a choice he’s making. Back in June I found out I was pregnant now currently 27 weeks with another girl. My son was born early 3yrs ago due to preeclampsia 1lb 60z. I’m currently do not work and my son gets a disability for delayed speech. I’m so stressed and depress about not being able to take care of the new baby. My best friend and aunt is giving me a babyshower to help out with things. I know things will get better with Christmas around the corner is even more depressing. He’s not even in the state of mind to work right now. I’ve come to conclusion that I have to step up and take care of my kids and I. Which I have absolutely no problem doing. My sons income and income tax is the only thing I have to rely on at the moment. I can’t work because I am high risk with this pregnancy. I’ve still taken chances on filling out apps even at fast food places. I pray every night that God remove this demon from my husband because he is a really really good man. He’s everything a woman could ask for but ended up making a bad choice. That’s the only reason I’m not giving up on him!!!